#oh man #but how guilty would chekov feel after that #what if he’d done that calculation #what if he’d been quicker #he was manning that transporter and someone died#it wasn’t his fault but that would weigh heavily upon him # he’s only 17 goddamn # and even after he’s talked himself out of thinking it was his fault # there would still be that nagging feeling in the back of his mind every time he sees spock # shh come here let me hug you chekov (via that-is-illogical)
do you wanna also talk about how he was Chief Engineer for ONE DAY and the Enterprise was practically destroyed and at least dozens of crewmembers were killed, including - however impermanently - Jim? do you wanna talk about how none of that was his fault but it must have felt like it anyway? if only he’d noticed the leak sooner, if only he’d been able to figure out how to fix it, if only he’d kept a better watch on the engines, if only he’d been shrewd like Scotty and just known something was wrong? because I do nOT WANT TO TALK ABOUT THAT
(Source: alonewithdreams)





